I flipped my little photo desk calendar over today to October to see this photograph:
I loved this day. So impromptu, which is hard for me to pull off, but ending up so perfect. Vera still hibernating, just the sleuths on their last Halloween as three.
Last October was a hard month: an anniversary tragedy, letdowns for Jarrod at work, we misplaced Jack’s Boy Scout popcorn selling sheet leaving us with $500 cash and no sheet to tell us what to buy with it or who to buy it for. Sadly, these hard things caused lots of disconnect and strife between Jarrod and I. I suppose that’s normal.
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Last October did have its high points though….like this day of photographs. I loved it so much. Mostly, I just love them.
I wonder sometimes how the stress over the last year will impact them. They feel it, they’re not stupid. We try to shield them as much as possible, but its not always an option. Like yesterday, me crying while shoving my sweet lace vintage curtains that my aunt gave me into a garbage bag to take to the cleaners because they were covered in mouse droppings…some things I just haven’t been able to conceal. I wonder how those moments will impact them in the long run or if they’ll be in therapy as adults because their mother couldn’t get her sh*t together.
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As much as we try to protect them from too much adult stuff, they still understand things. I realized yesterday that both boys came up to me at different times and said, “I’m sorry this is happening, Mom. I’m sure the mice are gone for good now.” Little moments like that make me hope that they won’t be ruined, but maybe they’re learning how to love each other better.
My parenting approach lately has been to let them see my downfalls…and talk about them.
“You guys, I’m so sorry I freaked when I saw the snake in the garage today. I’m just so tired of dealing with gross things. But when I freaked out, I wasn’t mad at you….I’m just mad. I’m sorry, you guys. Moms hate stuff like mice and snakes. Its not you…its me. Sorry.”
I hope that’s good enough for now.
Thankful for today:
1. kids that truly love
2. Vera falling asleep so sweetly with me last night
3. quotes that match those moments perfectly
4. people that understand
5. Jack, who has let Sophie sleep in his bed for a month because she’s afraid of mice
7. a cleaner coming to help me today: I needed to call in recruits long ago
8. kids that forgive
9. a quiet morning today
10. the school year routine that’s working really well this year
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