This week has been a total mind game if there's ever been one. Cray-to-the-zay! I went into this week with some big prayers and we're leaving it with some answers and a whole lotta movin' and shakin' on God's part. And speaking of God...I decided yesterday that He has a big ol' flare for the dramatics. I'd have to tell you every detail of this week to let you know exactly what I mean...but sometimes I just feel like there are easy answers and then there's just some big dramatic answers and I think He really digs those kind. I think he likes to keep us guessing...on our toes. He's not boring. Not in the slightest. I know we've got some answers coming and although I would prefer the hand-delivered envelope kind that come right when I want them, I think He's got a thrill-seeker version in mind. Just my opinion...
I've been holding onto hope like crazy. Hope always points to the future...always looks ahead. I feel like all the recent goings on in our life have somewhat overshadowed that fact that in less than 8 weeks we'll have a sweet little blessing to kiss and rock and hold. I hate that I haven't been able to just completely relish in this whole experience. How do you shove the stress aside and focus on what you don't want to miss?? That is my question for you.
For us, we made art. I used a poem that has been marinating in my brain for days and we used it to create some beautiful drawings. We are loving these new soft pastels. They are messy, but they create these beautiful impressionist-like drawings that the kids are so proud of. They blend beautifully. We got these at Micheal's and they're cheapy sets, but they seem to work fine.
We read about Emily Dickinson and her life. She was a different person...kind of a recluse and a hermit. But because of how she wrote, I sense that she wanted to be adventurous and see the world more. Either way, her writing is lovely and it speaks to me.
We read her poem about "hope is a thing with feathers." We are working on memorizing it. Their drawings were simple feathers and we used real feathers to get inspiration from. Each child's is very unique and different....
My emotional pregnant heart went to sleep on Tuesday night feeling overwhelmed about life...and I woke up to a whole group of sweet friends that I love, practically sitting in my living room waiting to shower me with goodness and love. My girl, Becky, gathered together a group of my favorite blog girls for a day of "virtual showering"...if you missed it, go read HERE and read all the posts. It seriously made my day...it made me know that God does really see those hurts we have and reaches out to heal them. It was just what I needed when I needed it.
We are still waiting, but I'm choosing to look forward today...know that there's a plan for me and I have big hopes for the future, whatever it might hold.