As much as it pains me to say it, it looks like this is goodbye.
The movers are scheduled for this afternoon to come and remove any trace of us being here...something tells me you won't forget us though.
5 years ago, our hearts pounded and our hands shook as we signed that line, making the biggest purchase we'd ever made. It was scary, but you've proven yourself worth every penny.
Basically it was love at first sight for you and I, wasn't it? You winked at me when you realized I was drive-by stalking you, driving around that block over and over again. You knew you had me hooked. It's no accident we found each other, you and me. It was no coincidence that I was driving by (yet again) as the realtor stuck that sign in the yard, announcing your availability for purchase. My heart literally stopped as I raced home to tell Jarrod.
Our first showing with you was exactly the way I'd anticipated it. You puffed up your chest, tucked in your shirt tails and strutted your stuff for us. I sensed a tinge of embarrassment from you over your current owner's choice of wall colors, but I fixed you up, didn't I ;)
We laughed in you.
Cried in you.
Fought in you.
Loved in you.
Had holidays in you.
Hosted parties in you.
Made a crazy amount of memories in you.
So, House, I hope you aren't offended by my saying this, but those statements all seem to loose their punch in the preposition. Because the fact is, we made the memories. You and I just happened to be in the same place. We still would've had those birthday parties, those holidays, those movie nights. We have loved our time together, it couldn't have been better....
Loved, but there is a bottom line to this letter....and here's where it gets a bit Dear John-ish...
I've been a little sappy over you these past weeks, but here's the deal:
you are a beautiful, strong, shelter-ific being, but you really are just a house.
A beautiful concoction of wood and stucco, yes, but still just a house all the same. A house isn't a home unless it's occupied and well, we're moving on.
I've realized these past weeks that my home isn't you.
It's Noah's big fat dimples.
Jack's smirking grin.
Sophie's neck hugs.
Jarrod's love notes on the mirror.
Home takes on a whole new meaning when you're moving.
It changes, ebbs and flows; home.
You know this letter is more for me than you. And you know I'll be missing your oldness, your shiny hardwood floors and your never ending character, especially when I've settled into my brand new townhouse with it's shared wall, plush white carpets, and fake oak cabinets. But I've passed you on.
And change is good.
Change is healthy.
Change is growing...for both of us. You and I.
So this is farewell.
Goodbye and Good Luck, 204.
love and blessings,
a







20 comments:
Could anything be more true? Your house is charming. I can understand missing it. I can understand missing all of the folks (friends and family) you're leaving behind. But home is made up of things in the heart. Your children, your husband, your Lord, your memories, your hopes...all in the heart. Home is right there.
Wow. All I can say is I love ya sweet friend. Your adventure awaits. And it's gonna be good!
oh, this post was even better when i turned up the sound and heard Bon Iver playing. love! : ) what a great post alicia, and all so true. i really admire your attitude toward change! good luck today, mama, and safe travels to your new home! XO
a big move is never easy, but i have a feeling that you will take it on as a BIG ADVENTURE!....wishing you all well this week ahead. remember to re-charge when needed :)
oh goodness girlie...make me cry why don't ya. i guarantee there's another house just waiting for you. you will make all those same memories and more:) it's so hard to say goodbye.
your old home is indeed stunning. i've never seen such a house; it's so unique and pretty. glad you know that you're taking your real home with you even though you leave the house behind. this was so very sweet. happy new beginnings. : )
beautiful post :)
I absolutely love this post and you couldn't have been more on the target! Your house is wonderful and you know I would have rented ;) BUT how exciting that you get to make another home in a new place with the ones you love! This next season of life is going to be so great! SO SO SO excited for you.
I'll think of you when I drive by 204. :) Thanks for everything, Alicia. Love you!
how sweet. i love this. :)
leaving an old home
is always a bittersweet thing
so many memories made
that the very walls radiate
the warmth of the living that's gone on
but when the road bends
there is always the fun
of looking forward
craning your neck to see
what is just around the next corner
blessings as you go through this transition.
alison
This is my all time favorite post! I wish I had done this when I moved to and from Texas.
Amy pretty much summed up all my thoughts..to the T. Including the bit about Bon Iver. So I'll just keep it short and sweet and say ditto. hehe:)
So happy for you guys... and so looking forward to the next chapter!!
I'm pretty much totally behind on your blog..blogging in general. I just read like every post though from where I left off, just now to catch up. You're moving! To North Carolina! Packing up your dang cutely decorated house and driving 'cross country! How awesome and fun and adventurous. I am slightly jealous. I am from southern Virginia and miss that area of the country something major. Can't wait to see y'all's new "digs" (to quote you ;) ).
Aren't you glad that you have documented many lovely memories in 204!
Now someone else will love your old house, and you have wonderful adventures awaiting you in Asheville, you lucky duck!
Enjoy every moment of it!
(((hugs))),
Ricki Jill
Hi Alicia! So, I've just officially started following your blog and I'm already loving it! I wanted to let you know that I'm from Asheville and if you need any low downs on where to find things, best places to eat, etc., let me know!
For instance, Tupelo Honey, is a place you must eat at within your first week there. And for fabric, the Asheville Cotton Co. has some really beautiful stuff!
...and I'm crying. What a beautiful post, Alicia, and so true. Good luck, safe journey, and bloom where you are planted, old friend. If we're ever in NC, I'll let you know!
love this!!! so, so true.
So sweet, alicia.
Fondly,
Glenda
oh thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this gorgeous post with me - it made me laugh and cry and I hear your heart so beautifully. Good luck in that new rental (ours has fake oak cabinets too :() let's inspire each other to make our new places awesome!! Have a wonderful blessed weekend you have already blessed mine! xo
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